i’ve bee thinking of going to a RESOLVE support group – there are a couple about an hour’s drive from here. anyone have any experience with them (extra bonus points if you’ve been to one in NJ). i’d love some opinions if you have any.
one thing that Dr. Y mentioned when were with her was that my files from Dr. Derman were missing a stimulation sheet. so glad i requested my whole file, and then had to nag to get my embryologist’s report. i called his office yesterday, and i am so frustrated. the medical records coordinator got a bit defensive when i mentioned that i had already requested my complete file, so it might not be in there. she calmed down a bit when i explained that i wasn’t blaming her, but that none the less, i needed the sheet. she tells me that i need to use the online system to request the file using the same damn form i had already submitted. she needs the new one though so she can know exactly what i’m looking for. whatever. i go online and try to create an account, but it looks like i did years ago when i started going to the gynecologist in the same clinic, only i don’t remember any of my log in information and the site is so messed up that i can’t reset the account. greeeaat. i put a call back in to the records lady and leave a very sweet, pleading voicemail for her. hopefully i can get some answers on monday.
i’m just so tired of this shit. i want to be done with Derman’s office. if i don’t get any answers by tuesday, i’m going to email him directly again. i hate to go over her head and be a pain in the ass, but wtf. i need the damn information so i can move on. i hope i can get it in time for this next cycle.
speaking of which, i’m on CD 49, and started taking provera two days ago. i have to go back in for bloodwork and an ultrasound on CD3, and should start BCPs soon after. it’s a strange mix of excitement and fear going on right now. i am trying to be optimistic that things will be different this time, but hope can be a scary thing.