i was surprised when pignut was born that it just didn’t feel real. i kept waiting for that moment when it would all sink in , and i would stop waiting for someone to show up and take him back.
i thought it would be the first time i held him. but it still felt link a dream.
maybe when we came home for the first time? no, still weird.
the first smile? nope.
it was today, when i emailed the ivf nurse coordinator with the details of his birth so they can include it in their statistics they report.
i think it may have finally sunk in.